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Funny,  I spent  years  stealing money to buy champagne  and caviar...
...instead of just stealing the champagne and caviar.
I really did have to lose it all to realize that everything's already mine.   I just have to reach out and take it.

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"I really did have to lose it all to realize that everything's already mine."
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